...Orientation...

First day of orientation can never get more boring than this! Oh well, I can't expect too much from UBD as well. But it's fair enough to have a few redundant speeches and prayers. At least the tour around the university was quite useful, despite having to sweat so much.

Knowing me, I escaped the afternoon events, predicting that the boredom of listening to more speeches will be suicidal. Luckily, I managed to pull myself out during lunch hour and headed home.

I don't really know why I've been so tired and lethargic back in Brunei. I always blame the weather. That may be a fact though. Lol... Tomorrow is another day for the orientation week. I'm looking forward to it more as it's for the faculty itself. At least I'll get to meet my fellow coursemates and the teaching staffs too.

For the rest of the week, I'll just skip. I reckon it's more sensible for me to give myself a break and go back to lessons fresh next week. All those activities sounds irrelevant for me. I'll give myself more tennis, badminton, swimming, gym and relaxing time this week.

For now, I really miss the group back in Sydney. They're simply just different. And life back there is much more independent. Most probably, it's the culture and privacy there that I miss a lot too. But it's not like I have a choice. Too bad...

But on the positive side, at least I get to study something that I love. So, I'll most probably just use the university for it's IM, and nothing else. Perhaps, 3 years of sacrifice is worth it in the long term. Just hope that things go according to plan now.

It's going to be a busy week with everything to settle with...

Denial

Without realising, I have went through the phase of denial. Many people may also go through this but it is just good to realise those things at the end of the day.

I used to not believe that my passion and dreams are important. People have been telling me that a job is just about money, with a bit of interest. That, I have to agree. But then everybody's goal is different. For me, after going through all these, I realise that I have a goal to achieve. I know some may not understand this but it is a significant thing for me. I read a book "What colour is your parachute?" and it makes me think clear. The author says that one should paint an idealistic picture and try as much as possible to reach it, instead of painting just a realistic one, with excuses. One phrase also states that it is not only how much you can contribute to yourself, your family and community; but it is how much you can contribute to the world.

I've just been back to Brunei for almost a week...and I've been hearing a lot of comments for what I did. I expected a worst scenario before I returned. More so, I have just terminated my BSP scholarship 2 days ago. The news has reached many already I guess. But then, these few days here have been pleasing. Many people have given me different opinions, for all which I appreciate.

I'm honestly touched by some of my teachers and friends. They really have been there to support me since I knew them. What they say have been particularly encouraging, especially when I need so much confidence to go through this stage and start off well in Medicine. I really want to thank those who supported me through this and those who prayed for me. I feel really lucky to have all of you around me.

Yesterday, I received the letter of offer from UBD to do the twinning course: 3 years of Bachelor of Health Science and then, 3-4 years of MBBS. Glad to hear from them, but my status now is under "fee-paying". I'll be such a burden! Really hope that my hardwork would be paid off and appreciated. I'll wait for the sponsorship approval for now. With that, I would really strive on to pursue my dreams.

So far, things have been going quite smoothly. Maybe I'm just lucky. But I really hope more things will go well for me...